Time

How can it be August already? When I'd barely do anything over the past eight months?
Realised I had a bad memory these days, can't remember stuffs.
Alright actually I did lotsa stuff this year, I was in Germany, Malaysia, Singapore then back to this small little town with blue sky and no clouds. Then my life is all about little molecules and drugs and expensive machines. And I lost weight and gained weight.  Then I forget all my german. Really miss Germany though. My happy little time, not that I am not happy now, but Germany gives me a different feeling of being independent and adventurous. And Wollongong gives me this safe and secure feeling. Then what's Taiping? Have I forgotten about Taiping? It changes and changes and changes and I had only step foot on Taiping for 12 days this year and maybe 4 days end of this year? Maybe the new definition of home is Wollongong now. How pathetic. And it has been a while since I last talk to anyone in Taiping except my mum. Guess friendship has long distance too.

Sometimes I wished that time stops,
because I don't want to leave you;
and sometimes I wished that time goes faster,
because I can't wait to see you.

kisses.

That bloody grain of rice

Yes as what my title has said, there was this stubborn grain of rice that gone into my nasal passageway or somewhere in there while I was eating/chatting excitedly with Allen about angpao money. (Apparently Taiwan's market price is at least RM100, and I was saying I shall visit him during CNY to earn some money.) And yeah serves me right, shallow-money-minded-eating-too-quickly me.

And I have been blowing my nose and coughing hardly for the whole day, even tried to google about solutions, and tried sniffing pepper to make myself sneeze but ended up sucking pepper into my nostrils and didn't sneeze. I guess sneezing is really a reflex and I can't control it. Gosh, who is going to take my grain of rice out for me?

OK anyway my day was hyper today. I woke up bloody early in the morning to go to my 1st research group meeting with the academics, my professors and his PhD students. It was initially an terrifying experience as I was a little-nobody undergraduate that doesn't know a thing, but then my supervisor introduced me and said 'Welcome to out team!' (was so easily affected by team spirit). OK anyway I am going to spend the next few months of my life working for him as his concubine (well I used to say that because I kept waiting for my other supervisor last session, its like a concubine standing by 24 hours just to wait to get into an affair) Alright back to the topic I am actually a research assistant, involve in a research investigating lipids in human lenses, and I am going to extract human lens! Woot's hyper, always happy to play around with human parts :P

I am gaining access to the Illawara Health and Medical Research Institute (IHMRI) which basically only open its access to medical school students or bio/chem postgrads doing research. The building is brand new! Just finished its construction last month and I was like a thrilled little kid being brought to the playground for the 1st time. And they had a hot chocolate machine there, giving me enough reason to like it. I will have a cuppa every hour then maybe :P

And then S and I went to the gym, doing body burn class, so bloody tiring running up and down doing aerobics on the Reebok step. And I think at some point we looked like a frog stepping on that platform.

Alrighty, thats basically some real updates about my life recently, and I gained weight! Happy person gain weight right ;P Gotta sleep, have to work tommorow! hope all goes well and I get paid nicely :)

xx.

I'm glad

I found you

when I fell out of love, when I thought I am not capable of loving anymore.

the chemistry was too strong, it was undeniable. it was hard to ignore, and although we both tried to, we did not succeed, and instead resulted in a much stronger bond.

we are complimentary for each other, you are talkative, but i am far more talkative. you listen to my rants, my stories, my bitchy gossips, and i laugh at your stupid jokes, your little words, and your dreamy mumbles before you fall asleep.

i am spontaneous but you think too much, it works out that i drag you out of your unnecessary worries, and you stop me from rushing into things.

we were never very romantic, no flowers, no presents, no surprises, therefore no affectation. and then i learn to appreciate what comes from the heart, the most fundamental things like love, care and your sincere smile. not to forget your touched expression whenever i cook for you. i then remember what love tastes like, when there is no artificial ingredients added to it. 

we get along easily. we can just talk for the whole day, sing for the whole trip, sometimes we debate about things, and sometimes we just enjoy each other's company in silence when we are busy. 

you are like a friend, a mentor, whom i could easily spill my secrets to. you don't judge, and you listen tentatively even if i was talking about my past relationships. and then you tell me you understand how hard it is, and how bad it feels. with you, i could easily be me, and be truthful with my feelings, i don't need to be shy, and there is nothing to be embarrassed about, even when i have my stinky hair (like everyday), or telling you my feelings, or waking up drooling. you accept me just the way i am. and you love me without make up.

with you, everything seems so simple. being happy is simple.

i am lucky to have found you , and you said its like you have waited so long to have finally found me. you are about as lucky to have found me too. 

and then we would have laughed at how amazing it is, where we were born 7 years and 3090.67 kilometers apart, and we both traveled across the hemisphere and finally met at this little place, then fell madly in love. I can't deny but admit that it is fate. we are fated for each other, at this moment of life.

and today, is a special day to remember how we got together month ago.

:)

Everytime I see you all the rays of the sun 
Are streaming through the waves in your hair 
And every star in the sky is taking aim at your eyes 
Like a spotlight 

The beating of my heart is a drum and it's lost 
And it's looking for a rhythm like you 
You can take the darkness from the pit of the night 
And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright 

(Making love out of nothing at all - air supply)

非你莫屬

也許會 笑著哭 但那人是你所以 不怕 苦

這是我最喜歡的一句。

就算 心在痛 淚在流

在被你擁入懷裡的那一刻

一切都無所謂了

因為 我有你。

Restart

Winter break is finally over and I am being throw back into reality.
Uni is busy as usual.

Had a great break, was busy seeing people, going out, having heaps of fun and feeling loved.

Wan Lin came down for a visit and we went to see Kiama's blow hole together.

The famous blow hole.

Dearest Yuko came back from Japan for her graduation and of course us must hang out.

Oh when is my turn to wear my robe?

I had so much fun this holiday, although it is hard to see friends leaving too, wondering when is the next time I would meet them. Bless them for their better future! 

And I have been eating so much lately. Not exaggerating but I ate like 6 slices of pizza myself? And nommed down endless chips and cokes, lollies and crackers with cheese dip. I am literally a pig.

I GAINED 4 KG.

Disastrous.

OK diet diet diet. and keep fit keep fit keep fit.

but before that I will have some ice cream now.

LOL.

Snort.

Letting go

is something difficult to learn.
Sometimes you try hard to let go of negative thoughts, let go of some complicated emotions, let go of all the frustrations, but somehow all those come back in another way, either from your little heart knocking reminding you, or from some people that doesn't even know what's happening but discussing heatly about you.

Or sometimes you see your loved ones not letting go, that hurts too. Just like you feel the pain yourself, in their shoes, and how you wish you could pull them out of the hell which you know is impossible. They are their own cure. Nobody can help.

Doubt. When you doubt about something, you know something is wrong. Because if you know the definite answer why take the time to doubt? But sometimes you know there is no turning back. Once something happened, once some words said, there is no way to erase. Life is not a CD player, you can't go backwards.

And of course in life, you learn to give and take. When you thought taking is better, you ended up demanding more and more, and you are never going to be satisfied with what is being given. And then you thought, maybe giving is better, at least when you give you felt happier. But then back to reality, can you keep giving and expect nothing in return? When you give, you expect a little bit in return, maybe not as much as what you gave, but at least the little gratitude for what you have given? And when you don't get any, will you still give as much? Or you would ended up missing being given, where taking seems a lot easier? Where you just take everything for granted without thinking so much?

And then you would die when you lose it. When you realise life is not about taking nor giving anymore. Then what's it?

Human being always confuse themselves, and I guess I am one of them.

Nights people. Ciao.

Holidays!

Finally, the long anticipated winter holidays have arrived 3 weeks ago. Throwing away all the stress and books, off I fly to Airlie Beach to enjoy give myself a break from all the nonsense here. It is a pretty place, quiet, not much people escpecially asians. The water is exceptionally blue, the breeze is gentle and fresh, the sun is warm but not burning your skin. It is indeed an ideal place to getaway from the chilly cold winter in Wollongong. And it is the first time I have watched sunset almost everyday in my life :)

Got on board to sail around the islands, although the weather wasn't good, and the sail ripped off at the start of the journey, I have survived two nights on the boat. We went snorkelling, which is totally opposite from my so called snorkelling experience in Pulau Paya, where the water is just untill my knee and I squatted to look at the fishes swam by. Snorkelling in the sea makes me feel very very insecure, like I would drown anytime a wave hit by or there would be a shark behind me and I wouldn't notice. Obviously I think too much. But I see all the pretty corals and fishes, just like the documentaries and I was impressed! Not so impressed though when my feet was scratched by all those dead corals and it is still itchy till today.

Mum is not happy with me sunbathing (my face). And I got tanned after coming back :D

Went to the Whitehaven Beach, the most amazing beach I have ever seen in my life.

Looking dumb in the wet suit but just focus on the the water, it is all clear, like you wouldn't believe your eyes when you see it and the sand is so fine and white (pure silica).

I am missing that place already! I hope I would go back someday :)

Still couldn't believe I have been to that place.

And miss having Baskin Robins under the hot sun. And the cooling breeze never makes you sweat. 

Perfect weather.

The marina at Airlie Beach. Dreaming about someday when I could buy my own boat and go sailing.

Blue sky, blue sea, blue me.

Came back to the Gong all tanned and chubby. That's what holidays are for right? To make you relax, eat, and grow fat :(

Clubbing with the sweeties @ Illa. Japanese night!

And see who is back! My ex-unit mate Steph had decided to come back from HK for a break and ruin my holidays. She stayed over for a few nights and we bitched like hell.

Went to watch Shrek 3 together and this Missy took my student card to get a concession. Teacher acting student, tsk tsk tsk.

Just came back from Melbourne yesterday with S.

Met up with pin and chloe! We met every year since we came to Aussie! At different cities :) Missing them already. It is nice to talk to someone that knows everything about you. save up so much energy to explain stuffs. Love this pic so much! Us looking sophiscicated!

Disaster for the hotel to have both of us. We can spend a whole two hours camwhoring in our bath robes LOL. That's us, we can do whatever we want and not feeling awkward, be it with lotsa gossiping and bitching, or some touching heart talks or just purely silence. We feel comfortable in each other's company.

Finally get to meet these ladies, S's sunway mates. Had great time with them, and brainwashed with all the KK accent. Gang bu gang?

And results are out! Glad I still managed to maintain my average.

Two more weeks till uni starts again. And before that, I am going to make sure I slack every second of my winter break! 

Ciao.