Letting go

is something difficult to learn.
Sometimes you try hard to let go of negative thoughts, let go of some complicated emotions, let go of all the frustrations, but somehow all those come back in another way, either from your little heart knocking reminding you, or from some people that doesn't even know what's happening but discussing heatly about you.

Or sometimes you see your loved ones not letting go, that hurts too. Just like you feel the pain yourself, in their shoes, and how you wish you could pull them out of the hell which you know is impossible. They are their own cure. Nobody can help.

Doubt. When you doubt about something, you know something is wrong. Because if you know the definite answer why take the time to doubt? But sometimes you know there is no turning back. Once something happened, once some words said, there is no way to erase. Life is not a CD player, you can't go backwards.

And of course in life, you learn to give and take. When you thought taking is better, you ended up demanding more and more, and you are never going to be satisfied with what is being given. And then you thought, maybe giving is better, at least when you give you felt happier. But then back to reality, can you keep giving and expect nothing in return? When you give, you expect a little bit in return, maybe not as much as what you gave, but at least the little gratitude for what you have given? And when you don't get any, will you still give as much? Or you would ended up missing being given, where taking seems a lot easier? Where you just take everything for granted without thinking so much?

And then you would die when you lose it. When you realise life is not about taking nor giving anymore. Then what's it?

Human being always confuse themselves, and I guess I am one of them.

Nights people. Ciao.